I was laying in bed, trying to sleep, but my mind was racing with all these thoughts on things that are going on right now. All I wanted to do was to talk to someone, but here I am... alone at 12 in the morning telling the unexpected victims who happened to stumble upon this post about my life.
So, for those who don't know, I really love acting. In fact, tryouts for the school play were last Tuesday. Meaning the cast list comes out tomorrow. And I'm basically screwed because I really want this one role, but you know how that goes. Whenever you really want a role, you never get it. I'm hoping for the best. As long as I don't have to talk in a British accent it should be fine... No matter the role, acting is still acting. I know I will have a great time on this set. I'm honestly just hoping someone I hate doesn't get the role I want !!! (I'm a horrible person.)
In other news, my first weekly drawing art critique is tomorrow and I feel a little sick. My art did not turn out the way I wanted. I made this collage based off the Thinking of You music video by Katy Perry. Basically it's like two lovers in the 1940s with war conflict. I'm not happy with how it turned out and I know it's going to be awful going around and seeing how everyone else did way better than me. Something you should know about me is that I'm really competitive. It's a blessing and a curse.
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I don't know if I mentioned this- but I have an 18 year old sister. She's moving into college tomorrow and I'm not sure how I feel. Everyone keeps asking if I will miss her. How am I suppose to answer that? I won't know until she's gone. My sister is under this impression that I don't love her, which isn't true. I just have a hard time showing affection. That's why I hate when she gets all mad at me for not hugging her and saying I love her. I get physically uncomfortable. I'm not sure why.
Okay the last thing I'm going to say in this post is on the topic of bad friends. I don't remember how much I mentioned this topic in my other posts, or if I even did at all, but I'm currently going some things with my friends... Or I guess just a friend and whoever they influence. Today I've come to the realization that most people I know have absolutely no idea how to be mature. So they can laugh all they want while I sit in the background watching them ruin other friendships. What's it to me? Nothing. Nothing at all... I'm done with one sided relationships.
Anyyywaaayyyy... That painting I mentioned in my last post is nearly finshed. More information to come soon...
(I made this post on my phone and I feel like a grandmother who's just learned how to use a phone)
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