Life Update 8/21/15

Well... It's currently 12:30am.

I was laying in bed, trying to sleep, but my mind was racing with all these thoughts on things that are going on right now. All I wanted to do was to talk to someone, but here I am... alone at 12 in the morning telling the unexpected victims who happened to stumble upon this post about my life.

So, for those who don't know, I really love acting. In fact, tryouts for the school play were last Tuesday. Meaning the cast list comes out tomorrow. And I'm basically screwed because I really want this one role, but you know how that goes. Whenever you really want a role, you never get it. I'm hoping for the best. As long as I don't have to talk in a British accent it should be fine... No matter the role, acting is still acting. I know I will have a great time on this set. I'm honestly just hoping someone I hate doesn't get the role I want !!! (I'm a horrible person.)

In other news, my first weekly drawing art critique is tomorrow and I feel a little sick. My art did not turn out the way I wanted. I made this collage based off the Thinking of You music video by Katy Perry. Basically it's like two lovers in the 1940s with war conflict. I'm not happy with how it turned out and I know it's going to be awful going around and seeing how everyone else did way better than me. Something you should know about me is that I'm really competitive. It's a blessing and a curse. 

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I don't know if I mentioned this- but I have an 18 year old sister. She's moving into college tomorrow and I'm not sure how I feel. Everyone keeps asking if I will miss her. How am I suppose to answer that? I won't know until she's gone. My sister is under this impression that I don't love her, which isn't true. I just have a hard time showing affection. That's why I hate when she gets all mad at me for not hugging her and saying I love her. I get physically uncomfortable. I'm not sure why. 

Okay the last thing I'm going to say in this post is on the topic of bad friends. I don't remember how much I mentioned this topic in my other posts, or if I even did at all, but I'm currently going some things with my friends... Or I guess just a friend and whoever they influence. Today I've come to the realization that most people I know have absolutely no idea how to be mature. So they can laugh all they want while I sit in the background watching them ruin other friendships. What's it to me? Nothing. Nothing at all... I'm done with one sided relationships.

Anyyywaaayyyy... That painting I mentioned in my last post is nearly finshed. More information to come soon...

(I made this post on my phone and I feel like a grandmother who's just learned how to use a phone)

Appreciating Your Own Art

I'm not sure if I mentioned it, but I'm quite the art junkie (may also be referred to as an art hoe… whatever you prefer.) I'm currently in Art 2 at school (meaning this is my second year of high school art… in case you couldn't tell.) I really love everything about art, you know… creating and admiring other's art. I still haven't decided who my favorite artist is, but I really like Monet… also Salvador Dali. That's besides the point though. What I wanted to talk about was liking art that you make yourself. This is something I really struggle with. I guess it's because I know what I want my art to look like, and it never turns out what I imagine in my head. 
The first project of Art 2 is a surrealism piece. Basically, you have to put your pet in a situation where it would not normally be. I decided to draw my dog in a forest as a deer. Because obviously that's not something she would normally be doing… at least I hope not.

My dog, Cassie

Above you see the picture of my dog that inspired my painting. See? She already kind of looked like a deer (I'm not talking about the antlers and hooves I drew on her.) 
Anyway, so far the painting has surprised me. Something I really struggle with as an artist is confidence in originality. Constantly, I feel like I need to watch a tutorial or look at pictures while painting my own stuff. However, with this piece I've not done either of those things yet. And I actually think it's turning out pretty well! Once i've finished it, I will upload a picture if I decided I like it enough.
I love feeling proud of my art. Or even if I hate how it turns out, I love feeling proud for doing it myself. The only other time I feel this way with art is typically in my journal (A journal is like an art diary… you use art to express feelings instead of words. You can check out my journal at http://bandboykink.tumblr.com/tagged/journal)

That's all I really have to say about appreciating my art. I hope as the year goes on, I really grow as an artist in Art 2. If you all would like, I can try and post more of my work.

In other news, I've been listening to Melanie Martinez's new album Cry Baby on repeat. It's insane. I need to get a copy ASAP. I think my favorite song is Pity Party. This is kind of irrelevant, but I've just been wanting to talk about it to someone. If you like this album- what's your favorite song off it? 
Okay and lastly, I'm updating my fanfiction Life After Death again so you all should check that you. Here is the link: https://www.wattpad.com/story/43324129-life-after-death
I guess appreciating my art could cover appreciating my writing since that's technically an art. However, I'm not sure if I'm proud of this story yet. I will probably end up deleting it soon, so read it while you can!

School… and Rambling

Ah yes… it's that time of year again.

School time.  If you're one of the lucky few who haven't started yet, shut your mouth- I don't want to hear your crap.  
Unfortunately, I started last Wednesday.  It feels like the life has already been drained from me.  So far today I've already took two naps and cried over geometry homework.  That's the joy of school, isn't it?  I don't think I will ever understand why my school system insists we learn math a certain way and punishes people for doing it differently. 
On another note, I want you to think about the person who makes you the most mad. Like… you hear their name and you want to punch a wall.  Got it?  I know exactly who I would think of.  That one friend who loves starting drama for no good reason and blaming it on you.  You know… the one who tries to steal your best friend from you??  God, I hate that kid.  What kind of person comes to your mind?  I have a theory that everyone has a certain set of people in their life.  The crappy drama loving friend is definitely on everyone's list.

I hope you all know how hard it is for me to type.  I got a full set of cat nails put on a week ago and it's nearly impossible to type.  I'm blaming any typo on them.

In other news, I just got back from a party I went to earlier.  A birthday party to be exact.  A sweet sixteen to be even more exact.  
Do people not think birthdays are special?  Because all my life I remember having such high expectations for my birthday and being totally let down.  I guess people just don't think it's important.  All I ever wanted was for someone to make me feel important.  Real life isn't like the books though.  Anyway, my friend told me she wouldn't bother showing up to this girl's sweet sixteen if she was invited.  Like why?  Is it such a burden that you can't even bother to show up and make the girl feel special?  I seriously want to know if I'm the only person in the world who actually cares about birthdays. 
Also- at this said party, someone told me I was very photogenic and it made my night.  Or maybe even my whole year.

I'm not sure where I was going with this post.  Sometimes I like to pretend people care about what I have to say.  Makes no difference to me whether you read this or not. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

Booktube-A-Thon 2015 (TBR)

"The reading of all good books is like a conversation with the finest minds of past centuries" -Rene Descartes

It's that time of year again.  School is quickly approaching and everything seems to be happening all at once.  I wonder if the creators of the Booktube-A-Thon thought about that before they decided to choose their dates.  Either way, it's time for the annual Booktube-A-Thon.  I've decided to take part in it this year, contrary to everything I've just said above.  Read-A-Thons really stress me out, ESPECIALLY this time of year.  But hey… I'm always up for a challenge.  Especially if they involve reading.

Here are the official 2015 challenges:
1// Read a book with blue on the cover
2// Read a book by an author who shares the same first letter of your last name 
3// Read someone else's favorite book
4// Read the last book you acquired 
5// Finish a book without letting go of it
6// Read a book you really want to read
7// Read seven books 

Now that you know the challenges, I'm going to tell you what I plan on reading.
Here's a picture from my journal where I doodled about it a lil bit:

1// Read a book with blue of the cover

I chose The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold.  Clearly it has blue on the cover, and I've been wanting to read it for a while.

Here's the plot:

The Lovely Bones is the story of a family devastated by a gruesome murder -- a murder recounted by the teenage victim. Upsetting, you say? Remarkably, first-time novelist Alice Sebold takes this difficult material and delivers a compelling and accomplished exploration of a fractured family's need for peace and closure.

The details of the crime are laid out in the first few pages: from her vantage point in heaven, Susie Salmon describes how she was confronted by the murderer one December afternoon on her way home from school. Lured into an underground hiding place, she was raped and killed. But what the reader knows, her family does not. Anxiously, we keep vigil with Susie, aching for her grieving family, desperate for the killer to be found and punished.

Sebold creates a heaven that's calm and comforting, a place whose residents can have whatever they enjoyed when they were alive -- and then some. But Susie isn't ready to release her hold on life just yet, and she intensely watches her family and friends as they struggle to cope with a reality in which she is no longer a part. To her great credit, Sebold has shaped one of the most loving and sympathetic fathers in contemporary literature.

2// Read a book by an author who shares the same first letter of your last name

I chose After Ever Happy by Anna Todd.  I'm actually currently reading After We Fell (the book before this one).  My last name is Thoman and hers is Todd so that worked out quite well.  I'm not going to attach a summary because this is the fourth book in the series and I haven't even read it yet.

3// Read someone else's favorite book

I chose Out of Reach by Carrie Arcos because it's my best friend Ella's favorite book.  I really don't know anything about it so I will attach the summary below.  This is the book I'm looking least forward too (no offense Ella!) The point of a read-a-thon to me is to lessen your tbr list so I don't see the point of adding a book I had no intention of reading. 

Here's the summary:

How do you find someone who doesn’t want to be found? A girl searches for her missing addict brother while confronting her own secrets in this darkly lyrical novel.

Rachel has always idolized her older brother Micah. He struggles with addiction, but she tells herself that he’s in control. And she almost believes it. Until the night that Micah doesn’t come home.
Rachel’s terrified—and she can’t help but feel responsible. She should have listened when Micah tried to confide in her. And she only feels more guilt when she receives an anonymous note telling her that Micah is nearby and in danger.

With nothing more to go on than hope and a slim lead, Rachel and Micah’s best friend, Tyler, begin the search. Along the way, Rachel will be forced to confront her own dark secrets, her growing attraction to Tyler…and the possibility that Micah may never come home.

4// Read the last book you acquired

I chose Even when You Lie to Me by Jessica Alcott.  As of right now, this is the last book I have acquired.  I'm actually super excited about this one.  I picked this book up at the famous Strand Book Store in New York City.
Here's the summary:
Charlie, a senior, isn't looking forward to her last year of high school. Another year of living in the shadow of her best friend, Lila. Another year of hiding behind the covers of her favorite novels. Another year of navigating her tense relationship with her perfectionist mom.

But everything changes when she meets her new English teacher. Mr. Drummond is smart. Irreverent. Funny. Hot. Everyone loves him. And Charlie thinks he's the only one who gets her.

She also thinks she might not be the only one with a crush.

In this stunning debut, Jessica Alcott explores relationships-and their boundaries-in a way that is both searingly honest and sympathetic

5// Finish a book without letting go of it

I chose Anthem by Ayn Rand.  This is actually my summer reading book for school that I have yet to read.  It's only 80 pages and has huge font.  I feel like I could easily do this one, but at the same time I don't want to rush my school book since I have a test over it.  We'll see how that goes I guess.
Here's the summary:
Anthem has long been hailed as one of Ayn Rand's classic novels, and a clear predecessor to her later masterpieces, The Fountainhead andAtlas Shrugged. In Anthem, Rand examines a frightening future in which individuals have no name, no independence, and no values. Equality 7-2521 lives in the dark ages of the future where all decisions are made by committee, all people live in collectives, and all traces of individualism have been wiped out. Despite such a restrictive environment, the spark of individual thought and freedom still burns in him--a passion which he has been taught to call sinful. In a purely egalitarian world, Equality 7-2521 dares to stand apart from the herd--to think and choose for himself, to discover electricity, and to love the woman of his choice. Now he has been marked for death for committing the ultimate sin. In a world where the great "we" reign supreme, he has rediscovered the lost and holy word--"I."

6// Read a book you really want to read

I chose Undiscovered Gyrl by Allison Burnett.  I actually just ordered this on amazon and I'm hoping it will get here on time.  I've been wanting to read this book ever since I saw the movie Ask Me Anything (which is the adaption but it has a different name).  It's actually about a girl with a blog haha… Also, I absolutely love the cover of this book!!
Here's the summary:
Only on the internet can you have so many friends and be so lonely.
Beautiful, wild, funny, and lost, Katie Kampenfelt is taking a year off before college to find her passion. Ambitious in her own way, Katie intends to do more than just smoke weed with her boyfriend, Rory, and work at the bookstore. She plans to seduce Dan, a thirty-two-year-old film professor. 
Katie chronicles her adventures in an anonymous blog, telling strangers her innermost desires, shames, and thrills. But when Dan stops taking her calls, when her alcoholic father suffers a terrible fall, and when she finds herself drawn into a dangerous new relationship, Katie's fearless narrative begins to crack, and dark pieces of her past emerge.
Sexually frank, often heartbreaking, and bursting with devilish humor,Undiscovered Gyrl is an extraordinarily accomplished novel of identity, voyeurism, and deceit.

7// Read seven books

Well… I don't have a seventh book picked out.  I honestly doubt I will get through all of these.  But if I somehow do, I will just pick one off my shelf that I already own.  The week of the read-a-thon (Aug3-9) is VERY busy for me.  I'm excited to see how this plays out.  How many books do you think I can read?  Are you taking part in the 2015 Booktube-a-Thon?  If so, tell me what books you plan on reading in the comments!

Yours Truly,

Marisa Thoman

(MysticMarisa)

Introduction

Welcome!

I'm not sure how you did it, but you did.  You found my blog!  Congratulations… I don't have a special prize for you or anything.  However, I can ensure your entertainment.  So whose blog did you stumble upon exactly?  That's a wonderful question.

My name is Marisa Thoman.  As of right now (July 29th, 2015 2:05AM), I am a fifteen year old girl who resides in Louisville, KY.  You may know me from one of my other various social media platforms.  I'm known as MysticMarisa on youtube and instgram, Marisathoman on twitter and wattpad, and bandboykink on tumblr.

This is me!!!

Like most teen girls, I enjoy posting every aspect of my life online.  So I figured I ought to make a blog.  Why not?  

My interests range from music to books to movies.  I'm basically an entertainment junkie.  I really love writing, hence why I'm taking a stab at blogging.  You can find my fictional works on my wattpad (http://www.wattpad.com/marisathoman)

As for my love of reading, I make youtube videos about books on my youtube (http://www.youtube.com/mysticmarisa) Some may refer to it as a booktube, but I wouldn't since I occasionally make other videos.  Also, I occasionally act around.  Like I said, I'm an entertainment junkie.  You may see me in the background of one of your favorite films so keep a sharp eye… 

And to conclude my short lived biography, I'm a lover of music.  I don't like to pin myself to one genre because I have a pretty diverse taste.  I'm going to get it out of the way already and tell you that I'm a huge one direction and 5 seconds of summer fan.  If you're one of those people who judge me based on that, go ahead and leave.  However you will miss out on all the other bands/artists I like.  Such as: Panic! at the Disco, Halsey, Green Day, Marina and the Diamonds, Nick Jonas, Katy Perry, All Time Low,  and much much more.  

I'm going to finish out my welcoming post with my intentions for this blog.  To be completely honest, I'm not sure what direction I will take this.  I want to share my life and be able to write freely.  I'm hoping I won't get frustrated and delete my blog within the first week like I have in the past.  I just want a new form of writing, ya feel?  

Alright, I'm gonna end it on that note.  If you have stuck with me through this jumbled mess, then thank you.  I hope to see more of you in the future, and I'm hoping you're thinking the same.

Cheers,

Marisa Thoman

(MysticMarisa)